Will you hit my back?
Harder!
Harder!!
Hello.
You're late today.
I'm sorry.
I'm going to my checkup.
Have a nice time together.
Surgery?
Don't worry. It's not a risky surgery.
But I need to have it...
to connect my arteries and veins.
Is it an artery/vein shunt surgery?
I did a little research on your illness.
Not that I understand it very well.
I'm a bit relieved...
that it's not a very complex surgery.
Yeah.
If I don't have it, I can't even live six months.
I told the doctor...
Told him what?
That I don't need to live more than six months.
But I don't want it any shorter than that.
And I'll haunt him if I die any sooner.
He looked like he was in a bind.
He said the two patients in this room are scary.
Are you okay? You don't look too well.
Really?
Yeah.
It must be the lighting.
I hope that's it.
And I am ill, after all.
I'm sorry.
Is Kyoko doing fine?
Kyoko? Why?
Have you seen her lately?
No, I haven't seen her at all.
I see.
Why do you ask about her?
I thought she might be bothered by it.
I feel bad... making her pound my back.
I would've gotten a bad feeling from it.
It's not a good feeling to hit an ill person's back with all your might.
Oh, really?
I thought she might be feeling awful about it.
If you see her, please tell her not to feel bad.
Will you apologize to her for me?
Okay.
Do you enjoy being with me?
Yes. Why?
Nothing.
What is it?!
If that's true, I'm glad.
I have fun with you.
Will you laugh?
What?
Please.
I love your smile.
Very much.
You're embarrassing me.
I think your husband is doing the wrong thing.
I understand how he feels.
If an ex-lover of mine told me that...
My feelings may waver.
But he's married!
He has his responsibilities as a husband.
He vowed to love you for his entire life.
Makoto...
Yes?
Exactly.
You are right. You are wonderful.
That's not my point.
Why did you allow it?
A part of me admires that wrong and stupid man.
Besides, I have my pride.
I don't understand it.
You don't have to understand it.
Okay.
I'm going.
It's not for work.
Finish it up for me.
Eh? Wait!
What do you mean, finish it?!
Thanks for waiting.
What do I do with this?
I'll eat it.
She told me to finish it.
Come in.
Hello.
Kyoko...
Please have this to eat. It's delicious.
How nice! You are truly thoughtful!
Did Shoichi tell you to come and see me?
Shoichi? No, I haven't seen or talked to him.
I see.
I thought you might be worried about me.
What?
Because of the last time.
I'm fine.
I thought you might be worried that I'm bothered about what happened.
Do you understand what I'm getting at?
You hate to lose, don't you?
Me?
Yeah. You can't stand losing.
Think so?
Yes. I'm sure of it.
You may be right.
Say... What are you talking about?
I'm lost here. Can you explain it to me?
What's so funny? This isn't fair.
I'm curious. Will you explain it to me?
Please.
I'll be too curious to sleep.
What if I get sick as a result of it?
Please tell me! Please!
It's been a long time, Mr. Takehara.
Did you come to see her?
Thanks.
Don't thank me.
Love Letters ~Men We Have Loved~ Episode 4
Surgery?
Yeah.
It's not a complex one.
I see.
But you know... just the thought of it shakes me up.
I understand.
I have to go to Etsuko's uncle's house
to get his consent for the surgery.
You have to go?
Who else will go?
Don't say it so proudly.
That's true.
She only has one relative.
But according to Etsuko...
She doesn't even associate with him.
He hasn't visited her in the hospital at all.
He seems to not want anything to do with her.
He sounds mean, too.
He's a middle school teacher.
So were you.
What?
That's true...
But he just seems scary.
He's a Vice Principal.
Isn't that scary?
I don't know.
So she's having surgery...
I have to go to see him.
Will you be okay?
That's a task for an adult.
You're not good at negotiating.
You always end up doing what the other person wants.
You apologize even if the other person is wrong.
You're hopeless.
I guess I'll go with you.
Eh?
Don't you want me to go with you?
It says so on your face.
You're easy to figure out.
I'll go with you. When are you going?
Huh? Oh, tomorrow.
Tomorrow? Okay.
What is it?
Nothing.
Thank you. You are a big help.
Don't tell Etsuko that I'm going with you.
What? Why?
I think it's for the best.
You'll seem hopeless as an adult.
That's true.
I'm sorry to ask you a strange favor.
It's no problem at all.
You don't seem to be good at those things.
True, it's not my specialty.
Don't worry.
Takasaki, huh...
Didn't you live there before?
For a short time when I was a child.
I was in my uncle's care.
I don't have any nice memories of the place.
Oh, maybe one.
Do you have a nice memory?
What is it? Tell me!
When I was in sixth grade...
there was a photography studio near my uncle's house.
And I was a model there.
A model?
I posed for a photo.
I wore a pretty dress and took a photo with a boy.
It was displayed in that studio for a while.
Every time I passed that studio and saw it,
I felt proud...yet bashful.
I moved shortly after.
I'm sure that photography studio is gone by now.
You never know.
I doubt that photo is still there, though.
That's my only nice memory.
That might be all that I have.
You look terrible.
What?
You look cornered.
You're awful.
- Really? - Yeah.
Is it sympathy... on an extreme level?
Maybe it was, at first.
But...
I don't know anymore... if it's sympathy or not.
I'm not sure anymore.
I just want to make her happy...
as much as I can.
I'll do anything for that.
What about your wife?
She might get upset if she hears this,
but after I left her...
I realized what a great woman she is.
It's something I didn't realize till I left her.
She's truly a great woman.
She's awesome.
Awesome.
It's outrageous, isn't it?
I guess.
What a bind I'm in!
Will you tell me your life story?
No.
I'm not an awful man like you.
What do you mean by that?
You're beyond help.
You get insulting when you drink.
Will you go to visit her?
She'll be happy.
Me?
I don't like going to the hospital.
It's lonely...not to have a family.
But you have that fisherman.
Yeah.
That's a positive answer.
Yes.
It's still sad...to die.
It's sad, isn't it?
I wonder if he'll come to my funeral.
What?
Nothing.
A funeral...
is the last time anybody will gather for me.
I'll be the main person.
I have never been in the spotlight for anything.
Except for my wedding.
I'm sorry.
Why are you apologizing?
Just felt like it.
I'm sorry.
What is it?
It's been a while since we rode the train together.
It's nice, isn't it?
Yeah.
What are you saying?
Where do you think we are headed now?
I know, but...
Just thinking about it gives me a headache.
I'm sorry.
Never mind.
It's not all right.
Yes.
Say...
What?
Are you hungry?
Yes.
Want to eat lunch on the train?
Yes, let's eat.
Excuse me.
We want a couple bento.
I want tea.
Don't spill.
Hey! Eat your vegetables.
I know. I'll eat it later.
I feel bad towards Etsuko...
but we haven't done this in a long time.
We haven't traveled at all after Suguru was born.
But we can't enjoy ourselves.
Shape up, will you?
Will you be all right?
Probably.
That smile won't work on the Vice Principal.
Understand?
Yes.
Where's Suguru today?
He's in good hands.
Do I add in vinegar?
It must be hard on you.
Don't you miss your dad?
Not really.
You can come to me for advice anytime.
Aren't there things you want to turn to a man for?
Not really.
You're lousy at it.
Don't say that.
You're no fun to play with.
Hey.
He's hopeless, isn't he?
What do you mean by that?
Let's eat.
Thanks for the meal!
It's terrible.
You're hopeless, too!
Don't say that.
This tastes awful!
You always eat it quietly.
Stop acting lovey-dovey in our house.
I'm still a kid, you know.
- Sorry. - Sorry.
I prefer to be alone.
Excuse me!
There it is.
Kyoko...
Hm?
Will you wait for me somewhere?
What?
I think I should go alone from here.
Okay?
Wait at that coffee shop.
Yes. I'll be waiting.
I'll be going then.
Why does he have to act like a man now?
Welcome.
- Coffee, please. - Yes.
TAJIMA
"Explanation and Consent to AV Shunt Surgery"
Will this do?
Yes.
How is Etsuko doing?
She's doing fine.
I see. I haven't seen her for 20 years now.
Her mother, who is my older sister...
caused us a lot of trouble.
That is why I severed my ties with her.
Although Etsuko is innocent.
Etsuko is to be pitied.
Mr. Takehara, was it?
Yes.
Are you her lover?
What?
Well...yes.
Please take care of her.
I'd like to pay for her funeral service, though.
What?
I want to at least do that much for her.
Let's not talk about that.
But it's something important...
Please don't say that.
But Etsuko only has...
Stop it!
I posed as a model before.
I wore a pretty dress and took a photo with a boy.
It was displayed at that photo studio for a while.
That's the only nice memory that I have.
Et-chan!
Et-chan...
You look very cute!
The wedding dress matches you very well.
It matches you well...
What's taking him so long?
Are you all right?
What?
Yes.
Was he rude to you?
Did you let him get away with it?
You're too timid.
What?
Mmm.
I knew it!
He's got to be joking!
He, her relative, should be taking care of her, not you.
Does he even realize that?
Well?
Huh?
Mmm.
What's wrong with you?
Coffee, please.
Kyoko...
What is it?
Do you remember our wedding?
Of course.
What is it?
At the wedding rental shop...
you insisted on renting a smaller size.
You said you'd lose weight before the wedding.
Will you forget that?
But you didn't lose weight.
So you couldn't zip up the dress.
- That's enough.
You had to use safety pins to hold the dress closed.
Stop it. Why are you bringing that up?
What's so funny?
I covered it up well and nobody noticed it!
They noticed.
You're lying.
I'm not. They all noticed.
- You're lying, aren't you?
No. They all told me.
Why do you bring that up now?
Stupid!
What are you doing?!
What?
You wouldn't come out from the dressing room for a long time.
When I went to check on you with your father...
you were crying.
And it was because you couldn't zipper the dress.
But your father took it all wrong and...
thought you didn't want to marry me.
That's enough.
You're laughing too hard.
Sorry.
I'm teary.
What's the matter?
Keisaku...
You look very troubled.
But what you're about to do is wrong.
Very wrong.
Isn't that it?
Don't come to me later.
What do you mean?
The problem is...
you have a good look on your face.
Don't come to me later.
Hang in there.
Yes.
Yes!
Good morning.
What are you looking for?
Found it.
My goodness!
What is that supposed to mean?
Nothing really.
Don't I look cute?
Never mind.
Why? Don't I look cute?
Will you say that I'm cute?
Why would think my mother is cute?
Is that so.
I was so cute!
Everybody thought I was too good for your dad.
Is that so.
Yes, so.
Don't you want to see it?
Never mind.
I'm going to the hospital.
Bye!
Are you all right?
Shall we go?
Yes.
Et-chan...
Yes?
After the surgery...
After...
bokutachi wa ayamachi wo okasu We keep making mistakes
bokutachi wa sugu ni tachidomaru and soon will come to a stop
sasai na koishi ni sae mo tsumazuite Stumbling over just a small pebble
dareka no kotoba wo shinji Whose words do we believe?
dareka no te no naka ni iru And whose hands are we in?
saigo wa hitori na noni Even though we are alone in the end
jibun ga kizuite iru yowasa The frailty that we notice in ourselves
jibun ni taerarenai morosa And the weakness that we can't bear in ourselves
mienai furi wo shita mama ikite yuku We live on, pretending we can't see it
doushiyou mo nai iradachi The feelings of helplessness
doko mo atenai tabidachi as we start off on a trip with no destination
kurikaeshite Over and over again
hiiragi wa Holly is
fuyu no otozure tsugeru hana the flower that tells of winter's visit
bokutachi wo tada soko de mioroshite iru By simply looking down upon us
maidashita konayuki wa The powdery snow that danced on its way down
tsumoru no deshou has blanketed the ground, don't you think?
fuyu wo taenuite yuku I want the strength
tsuyosa ga hoshii yo to endure through the winter
kimi no mune no katasumi ni There's a thorn that remains
nokoshita toge wo in a corner of your heart
yagate kuru haru made ni I want to melt it
tokashite agetai by the time the approaching spring comes